Today, I’d like to share something deeply personal —and perhaps a little surprising.
Despite being a committed meditator for over 12 years, I experienced recurring episodes of anger, ironically, right after meditation. While the meditative state was blissful, what followed often wasn’t. I was left puzzled, sometimes even guilty.
Why was this happening?
The answers I found led me to a deeper understanding of karma, soul layers, and the healing process. This story is not just mine—it might also reflect your journey.
Disclaimer: What I share here is my personal truth—born from years of inner work, study, and spiritual exploration. It’s not an absolute truth, but a reflection of my ongoing evolution. Please receive it with openness.
Meditation & Unexpected Anger:
For years, to date, Meditation has stayed my anchor. But, there was a phase in my life when, right after meditation, instead of peace… I would feel a wave of anger. My energy would shift. My expression and behaviour reflected it. And I couldn’t understand why.
As we know, Meditation, in its purest essence, is meant to calm and liberate us, bringing us out of our zone of denseness. What I realised is that it doesn’t bypass our wounds. It brings them to the surface. It gently shines a light on what’s unresolved.
The famous psychiatrist, psychotherapist, and psychologist Carl Jung said,
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate.”
What it means is that our hidden subconscious silently keeps playing its cassette and runs our life, which we don’t even stay aware of, and since it happens without our knowledge, we blame it on our fate.
Meditation brings the hidden stuff of the subconscious to our consciousness!
Meditation lifts our frequency. But if we carry unresolved anger, guilt, fear, resentment—these dense layers rise to the surface when we meditate.
It demands a different level of maturity to not get entangled in what is getting surfaced. But most of us do, and so unless we process and heal them, we get stuck.
The Hidden Layers of the Soul:
According to the Mundaka Upanishad, our highest goal is to realize:
Aham Brahmasmi—I am the Divine.
But why are we not in that experience?
Because we’re covered—layer upon layer—like an onion—with unresolved emotions, karmic imprints, and patterns formed through ignorance and pain.
Imagine a soul dying in fear from an accident…
Or ending a life filled with betrayal, grief, or anger…
These emotions don’t disappear. They become part of our soul’s memory, adding dense layers that carry over into the next life.
The Soul’s School & Karmic Blueprint:
Life is not random.
The soul chooses its life circumstances, relationships, even wounds, because for a Soul, Earth is a school. Soul reincarnates to learn its lesson and get upgraded to the next grade, and evolve.
We reincarnate with a karmic blueprint to resolve our Prarabdha Karma—unfinished lessons from the past. Like diamonds formed under pressure, our souls purify through challenge.
But here’s the catch: we forget the plan.
We forget we chose these experiences.
As children, we absorb everything, especially if we’ve chosen difficult parents or environments. Without the mental capacity to filter, our soul ends up adding new wounds to the old ones, or old ones get crystallized further.
Conscious Choice verses Victimhood
In every life, we’re given a choice:
🔹 To make our unconscious conscious—or not.
🔹 To learn our lessons—or repeat them.
🔹 To purify our inner microcosm—or stay stuck in drama and density.
The ego— our defense (the false identity)—wants to hold on. It reacts with blame, judgment, anger, and fear. This is how the karmic cycle deepens. But the soul? The soul seeks freedom.
True healing begins when we take responsibility for our journey.
Look at Meera Bai or Lord Mahavira—they faced immense suffering, yet they didn’t see others as enemies. They operated from a higher truth.
Can we?
Yes, temples, rituals, sadhanas, kriyas—all of these are sacred doors.
But for many, especially those in early soul stages, these alone may not lead to transformation.
Haven’t we all seen people who fast, pray, and visit temples regularly, for years… yet remain angry, judgmental, or stuck in victimhood?
That’s because without conscious inner work, outer rituals become mechanical.
Meditation opens the door.
But tools like Inner Child Healing, Family Constellation, Past Life Regression, and likewise help us walk through it.
They help dissolve what’s dense, heavy, and karmically unresolved.
My own breakthrough came when a friend introduced me to Inner Child Healing.
Later, I explored Family Constellation and Past Life Regression and a few more like-wise.
Suddenly, things began to make sense.
My anger wasn’t “bad.”
It was a signal—a messenger pointing toward unhealed pain.
My inner work helped me make the unconscious conscious.
I realized:
It’s one thing to know the Law of Karma…
It’s another to be aligned with it, to live it.
This work helped me come to peace with the past, shed layers of anger, and understand my soul’s journey with compassion. And, I am a work in progress, and my inner work continues.
Most importantly, it helped me shift from “Why is this happening to me?” to “What is this here to teach me?”
I realised, these aren’t just healing techniques. In responsible hands, they’re deeply spiritual tools—capable of peeling back the dense layers the soul carries.
Science Meets Spirituality
This is where I see a beautiful union between science and spirituality.
Carl Jung and many deep thinkers explored the metaphysical aspects of the psyche.
Our scriptures and divine masters offer timeless wisdom for soul evolution.
And between them stands this inner work—offered through healing modalities—that helps purify the journeying soul, layer by layer.
It helps resolve karma, re-awaken soul wisdom, and guides us toward that final destination:
Aham Brahmasmi—I am That — as we continue to work on ourselves.
It was transformational to understand that
Our soul didn’t come here to suffer.
It came here to remember.
If my story resonated with you, maybe it’s time you begin—or deepen—your own inner work.
Thank you for reading.
Until next time—stay anchored, stay awake, and stay empowered.
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